Zombie

Sometimes I feel like everyday is the same. Like I’m forced to wake everyday to do the same routine consisting of showering, going to school which means going to the same 8 periods and learning the same stuff then come back home taking school with me except, never really waking up to begin with. Sometimes I feel like the things I learn don’t actually help me, the help me to help the system. You see “they” plan our future for us by giving everyone social security numbers at birth, forcing you to go to school, drilling it in your head that there is no other way but school. I think education is a great idea but I feel as if the government doesn’t do it for our own good, it does it for IT’s own good.. see what I’m saying? We’re just along for the ride. The plan is for us to go to school for 12 years at the least (because if we didn’t we wouldn’t be able to efficiently support them) but the strongly encourage us to go to college which does mean a better life for us, but they still get their pick of our salary: Income Tax. While most think we need income tax to support schools, construction etc we do NOT. Schools are supported through property taxes, roads through gasoline tax (and for the record 43 cents per gallon) etc. I wonder what the extra money (income tax) goes to? Supporting them and their wants of course.. the only question is what? Warfare? Weather Manipulation? Who knows… but that whole subsection was to explain why they want you to go to college to get your money. You don’t work for HEB you don’t work for Nabors, you work for the government..ultimately and indirectly. I digress, this whole school thing whether it be for the government or not is still this big routine. First i go to elementary which has it’s own subroutines, everyday being the like the last. Then there’s Middle school which is slightly different with more subsections of routines and so on. After college it’s work but to me it all looks the same. You can setup your own schedule but it’s probably going to be something like work 9-5 for 5 days off for 2. Repeat until your vacation comes once a year (if your lucky) repeat this bigger cycle until graduation Oh wait there is not graduation because it’s not high school. There are no bigger cycle so the only thing next is death. It scares me.. i know. However there is one thing i forgot to mention: how much harder work is than high school. You see work seems to be based of of high school except far more serious. There is no “make-up” work in your career only deadlines which if not met mean trouble. There is no parents to help you reason with your teachers (boss), there is no detention for being late to school only being fired. Furthermore the money earned (knowledge) can barely be used to by yourself anything because it is all going to bills. Like that nice car you bought leaving you with a nice car but with practically no money to pay for insurance, gas etc to even drive it. See what I’m saying? Stupid. The only thing you can do with it (well afford to anyways..) is drive it to work. Wow big whoop. I don’t know why kids wish to “escape” school so bad. You find yourself facing the real world which is not better than the sheltered school you were in before. It’s not the teachers or responsibility you run away from, it’s the energy and life depriving school schedule itself. You see doing the same thing everyday requires less and less of you actually thinking. You start to walk to this or that class or go to this or that lunch line without even realizing it, eventually (practically) turning you into some kind of mindless zombie. The only time we use our minds is on the weekends but by this time we are so tired we don’t want to do anything but sleep. And might I add, that it’s not your boss (teachers),work (homework) or even lack of sleep probably due to you bringing work home with you that drains you. It’s the mindless, zombifying schedule. This empty schedule that never mentions anything benefiting the human being following it, only the government from whom it was designed by. The exhaustion just blurs everything.. When adults tell you to stay young it’s for a reason. Because they have realized that work is just harder outside of school than inside, but they probably don’t realize why. Like i said, it’s the restless schedule we live out lives by, getting into car accidents just attempting to be on time to work? What are we? The car itself might be great but the costs, responsibilities, liabilities and the like, I’d say, heavily outweigh the gift itself. Why even drive? Might as well walk. The sad part is we don’t need cars but we do need them to be on time to work. Like Ive stated in the previous post Foolish Laughter, this country has evolved to be built upon a foundation containing a core problem. The false believe that we “must” keep going with technology. I can go on about that but cars only solve problems created by technology itself. How ironic, i know. All of this worry tires me more than any work ever can/will but it’s stacked on top of the work.. and that’s not including the far more challenging period of the real world i have yet to face.
Lucky me.