Mind of Logic

Even after concluding I must balance my intuition and Logic, I still realize my minds prime ammunition is Logic. I am very Logical and I think it's because I'm very inquisitive and curious which means I want to know how things work and why etc. It's reasonable that I want the truth rather than just a belief or something along that nature, which is most likely why my mind is so heavily based off of Logic, because when using Logic there is no doubt, only evidence that will lead to proof concluding a thought or debate. Furthermore intuition is in no way proven which obviously leaves it's front door open for fallibility to walk right in. This is why (I believe) when finding justice, a judge (at least should) bases his/her conclusion off of logic, which is based on evidence, not their gut feeling which is probably propelled by prejudice behavior (maybe judging based of of the defendants, appearance). Even though me basing my thoughts on Logic is reasonable due to the fact it's more solid, I Logically conclude that sometimes my mind must use intuition foreseeing a path invisible to my humble yet strong logic. You see in my eyes, Logic moves very prudently and can be compared to a computer: It will take all the time it needs to come to a conclusion it knows works because of evidence and proof, but when forced to make a 50% chance fail 50% chance progress decision it basically won't ever move because of possible failure. Whereas Intuition uses little to no evidence and makes uncertain decisions even if possibilities of failure are great. However intuition itself somehow gives the beholder a strong sense of the correct path (or at least it can) which Logic could never do and is quite strange. The two base's of thought balance each other out. How? Logic is probably going to be the primary basis of thought proving and justifying decisions (meaning it's not possible to make a worse decision that intuition only greater than or equal to) and then once a Logic itself cannot make a decision, intuition comes in and makes a decision based on gut feeling. But how? ..Who knows? My perspective of the two is clarified: I must have a balance. However as previously stated, I cannot seem to follow with action what my mind has ordered me to accomplish. I find it difficult making decisions sometimes, always doubting things in life because of the fact that their is room for doubt. If there wasn't room for doubt (which if it were proven there wouldn't be) I wouldn't doubt it. But there is, and so i doubt it. It's just my logic. Allow me to construct a more visual and practical situation i can demonstrate this concept and difficulty within. I'm about to by a pair of shoes. Even though the shoes are wicked cool my logical mind keeps bringing up the possibility of better shoes being out there. (I know it's a ridiculous example but bear with me) Because I can't prove that the shoes i like aren't the best (I don't want to settle, why get possibly mediocre shoes if it's possible there are shoes with the ability to dwarf the ones I admire now?) I hesitate the order them, afraid there are better shoes (as a computer would not make a decision because it is afraid to be wrong). This is a problem and I know it. Why can't I make such a simple decision? They are just shoes! However this concept applies to more than just shoes... but I digress. One of my ultimate question about this controversy is: Am I asking to much? Is there really a perfect pair of shoes out there for me, or will I always get the pretty awesome ones? What if the pretty awesome ones are really the perfect ones but because of my logic and semi skepticism, I make myself believe there are better, or at least can't pass the possibility of superior shoes? It's scary to know this problem is effecting me and I can't seem to cure myself of it. What's even more scary is how will I ever know what is perfect and what I can do better/get better of/in life when this problem chooses to appear in my life? I mean when it comes down to it how do I really know? I know this is where my intuition is suppose come from the shadows giving my Logic a rest but i fear if this were to happen the possibility would still haunt me in the form of those two most terrible words: What If..? It seems to me i must make sacrifices and risks in life because of the 2 facts in life: 1. The people we love, and the things we do can't always be the things that we strive for. And 2. I cannot predict life and every segment of it, I am just a man. It's logical and reasonable to conclude this but my mind won't accept it. I somehow need to get the Logical portion of my mind to accept this and start following the truth with action. I don't know how it's possible but I've realized my logic argues points in life with...itself. It argues the possibility of better this and better that but it also argues to importance of intuition and therefore not everything in life can be proven hence the fact that there will always be the possibility of this or that.

I suppose I must believe.