Keys Through Analogies

When I look at life, I sometimes forget how I do so. This is the most important thing, really. If you do not know how to teach yourself, then you cannot learn. To me, it's important to get down the method or something like a method, of how I go about reflection and examining life. I usually begin a lesson with the most obvious questions such as :Why did this work? Why did this not? What could have been improved? Was this the best outcome? etc. These questions lead to other questions like: Is there some kind of balance within the world? What is the lesson to be learned here? and so on. These questions can be answered with words, but I feel analogies play a vital role in understanding things. I even have an analogy for my method of understanding It's something like this: Think of life mathematically. Every set of numbers has an equation. Just as the slope of a linear line is Y=mx+b, there is an equation for every slope, for every set of numbers. This relates to life because , in the example of fulfillment, we ask how do we reach fulfillment? Well I know what it takes in certain circumstances, but that's not what I'm looking for. What I am looking for is an ultimate rule, such as "fulfillment is always achieved through selflessness; always self-full through selflessness" according to Lao Tzu in the modesty verse from the Tao Te Ching. This let's me see the "equation" for a certain subject and not just one solution, a way to find a solution every time.-That is my way of looking at how I reflect (reflecting reflection itself, ha ha). However, this for me applies to for everything. Every equation I believe I find, I create an analogy for to completely understand it. Why create an analogy? It is easier to look at a smaller specimen and ask why, where rules are simple, than it is to look up, where rules are far more complex and ask why? Things, or equations rather, in life appear not just once, but many times, big and small and the same equation. Why work with bigger numbers (looking up where things are more complicated) when you can work with smaller, easier numbers (things are more simple)? To support my idea, I will add that Michio Kaku (a famous theoretical physicist), the co-founder of string field theory, and a "communicator" and "popularizer" of science, uses analogies to understand and explain as well. In his book, Hyperspace, he examines fish in a pond. After observing the way the fish have no idea about the world outside the pond because they are in the pond, and it is simple to us because we are beyond the pond, he concludes with what I would call an equation, that things get simpler when looking "down" rather than "up". He says that it is easier to travel "up" and look "down" on things because they will become more simple. This idea introduces the layman into the theory of hyperspace, and how the universe and it's many laws become simpler as we travel into higher dimensions. One final analogy of this is the ancients, which also belongs to Michio Kaku that resides within his book Hyperspace. To them [the ancients] the weather was a mystery but now, as we can travel "up" into space, we see the pattern of the weather and the answer becomes obvious to some extent. So you see, rather than explaining the theory of hyperspace with "ok well there's 10 dimensions and there are these big strings that vibrate up there..." and so on, he creates analogies. Through the fish-pond analogy we learn that things do become simpler as we travel "up", through an analogy of light he will explain why the theory of hyperspace concludes superstrings make up all the things we know, and so on. All can be explained and understood through analogy. Even when being lectured we should make analogies. In every class make analogies. In computer science, when learning about Object Oriented Programming the object is to learn why we create "check points" in programming. I create an analogy, which is templates, and conclude that we sometimes don't need to write code over and over again so we create check points, or within the analogy a template, to save time.
Nature repeats itself, big and small, black and white, old and new, eastern and western, the same rules apply.. just find a simpler way to express this and you will understand, not just know.
"Those who know, do. Those who understand, teach." - Aristotle
5.8.11

Foolish Immunity

Like all things, we must not accept truths as truth until we personally understand why it is the truth. This is accomplished by challenging what people call the truth. Ask questions! If it's really the truth it will withstand any question without breaking a sweat, but if it's a lie, or just wrong it won't hold up so well. Many great thinkers have philosophized about morals, ethics, government, life itself etc. They have many different views and some just can't be solidified into just one view, because it is perspective. However, there are things that are just a matter of discovering the truth, but this is of course not without risk. Thinkers could have gone wrong somewhere in the many words they have spoken, after we are human, we are fallible. This is why it is so important to simply ask Why? How? etc. It serves as a fool proof system if every generation tests it, finding potential errors and also extending definitions further than what they already have been. This principle applies to more than just philosophies, it applies to life, such as people and authority. If we meet someone new for the first time, we do not know how they are. Are they sincere with integrity or devious and deceptive? We don't know so we cannot assume, we must stick to the principle. Ask questions and use logic! When it comes to authority, we must not submit blindly to it, ask questions! You've got the right! Once upon a time, an officer stopped me for no good reason. I was doing nothing and had nothing illegal so I didn't run or anything foolish like that. He then asked me to sit, and I demanded an answer, " Sir, with all due respect I see no reason to do so. Why do you ask me to sit?" He replied with "Just sit down!" I didn't understand why and therefore stood my ground until he gave me clarity to his reasoning. He said "Look, most people like to run off on me, and I don't know you so I can't assume you won't do that, so I ask of you to sit hindering your ability to get away!" His reply made perfect sense, and I would do the same, so I sat. After a search, he released me. There was nothing wrong with what either of us did, but he could have asked me to do something else, and I probably wouldn't know why, so what if it were something against my rights? Yes, he didn't do anything wrong be he could have, and because I don't know him, I have to take appropriate precautions which is to not assume, simply ask! And that is what I did. So you see this principle will help protect, secure and advance us humans. Protect us from abuse by forces such as authority which in many great men's eyes should not be trusted. Secure us by avoiding deviance and deception with questions providing clarity and also secure things such as philosophies by rechecking their truthfulness and accuracy. Advance us by taking things further but still retaining wisdom such as adding to philosophies and extending them. This principle will help prevent unnecessary things such as ideas supporting lazy habits of humans. For example the remote. Why? Why do we need it? Tell me because I do not know, and if you created it, you must know!
Just another method of thought which I live with, aiding me ever so deeply, ever so reliably.

"If you would be a real truth seeker, you must at least once in all your life doubt, as far as possible, all things."-Rene Descartes.
3.23.11

Passion

"When life hits you, you'll find out why I no longer have such an active imagination with such curiosity." is the gist of what I was told a few days ago. The older woman is intelligent and that I have to respect. However I am no idiot; I question why. Why? What is it about life that will make me stop? What is it that made YOU stop? She replied with "Kids, money, working" etc. So it occurred to me that these things were obstacles or as she called it "life". Life itself was in the way for her. She basically said to me "Alec, I know your in the age group that has a lot of time to think.. just think and think and think! Not me anymore.. I haven't the time. When life hits you, you won't either." I disagreed stating that many people don't question what's right in front of their faces, yet I do. I also stated that I have a lot to do! Besides school I have many side projects and studies I concern myself with, yet I still find myself thinking and thinking. Even though these projects are about my thoughts and these studies about my interests, I get distracted. Distracted from distractions essentially. So why her? Why has she stopped? I haven't. Yes, she is right about life and how it has not hit me, but I do believe my curiosity is me, I am curious so it will not die. What stopped her? Was she simply not as interested as I? I then asked her, "Do you believe life is sad?" She answered with "Yes I do." That might explain why she no longer questions. I myself, find sadness with the results of my questions and it really is difficult to continue, but I must. I then asked "Is ignorance happiness, to you at least?" She said "Yes". Further proving her perspective on life. I mean it must be sad, because if it were good why would she choose to ignore it? It seems to me that she chose kids, a partner and working over her liking of questioning things. These things seem to be necessity, but they aren't. As she pointed out to me, many great thinkers are older men without wives and kids that would tear him from his passion. So it is possible, people have done it. I have a passion for thinking, I am passionately curious. I , at this point in life, debate whether I would want to go to college, whether I want kids and a wife. Many people would drop dead over the thought as they see it as a routine. This is not me, it is only an option. I love to talk about what drives me, the many philosophies Lao Tzu, Confucius etc kept. I simply love it! That is what I want to do with my life, above all. Sure I consider going to college.. but for what? To support my passion. I want to become wealthy enough early in life, that I will not be forced to work the rest of my life, leaving room to do what I love; think! I think about having kids and a wife, but that is only one way to achieve happiness, but I believe there are multiple if not many. If a wife and kids are going to pull me from this dream and passion I say no. This is what happened to the lady above. She chose her partner and kids over what I chose, my contemplations. Perhaps I can have both, but I shall see in time. Perhaps, you're asking why I love to think so much. To some extent I cannot explain why. As for the other, I wish to help the world. How will I help? Doing what men life Lao Tzu and Confucius have done, thinking up the morals they live by and teaching them. Da Vinci even, the man had many ideas and had many journals that later aided science because all he did was think. There is a lot we can do. Also, I simply just wish to understand the world, and to come to terms with myself and why I am; why I exist. Although I would love this, there is a chance that I will just be wise with nothing more to offer than my rambles. To me that doesn't sound so bad, but I wish for more of course. Even if I do end up a wise old man with not much to show for myself except my findings, I shall still consider myself a success. I gave an effort. Not just any effort though. I gave an effort towards a struggle not many dare to face. An effort that many, such as the woman above, has declined. The effort is discovering why I exist, why people exist, their purpose, self actualization etc. If the world were to try they would all be successes. The truth is, not everybody can be as great as Lao Tzu, Confucius, Einstein, Da Vinci etc. but we can all try and that is where my mind is at today.
Confucius says "It doesn't matter how slow you go, just do not stop."
I say "It doesn't matter how far you get, just give it an effort and you went far enough for me."

Variable Infinitum

It seems the world is a variable. How do I figure? It varies! Changes! In , at the very least, two ways. The world goes through physical changes independently, and through the enduring of mankind. It also goes through a more metaphorical change. When people say the world has changed they usually mean the people in it. It’s funny because they probably have no idea how right they are. You see if people are a part of this world and they change than the world changes, even if the slightest change, a change. To think about this in a mathematical sense, the world is a product of many variables. These variables, such as the world itself, humans, animals etc are all variables like x, m, k etc. If one of the many variables change even slightly, the product will change, and even more so with larger numbers. However humans are no small variable. If humans were to have a percentage of 100 over all variables deciding the worlds fate, it would be something high up. Perhaps, a fourth or a third, maybe even half but who knows. Meanwhile, animals and the like would have a much smaller percentage. Yes they are important but we as humans are the ones who can impact the world and far greater scales ever so rapidly. The topic of this passage is not to discuss man-kinds leverage over the world, although that is a very interesting topic. It is to discuss products of humans and humans. Extreme variables with extreme variables. I refer to humans as “extreme” variables because they can vary is so many ways such as acts, emotions, perception each with it’s own complexities. Thing’s like friendship and love require two extreme variables, so more than often the outcome is unpredictable. You don’t know what kind of person someone is when you meet them, therefore you don’t know how well you two will mix. In mathematical terms, you don’t know what variable you are dealing with so you don’t know what kind of product to expect. Because nothing is ever for sure, and even more so with variables such as humans, we must take a leap of faith when attempting to establish things like Love and Friendship. People might argue that no, it’s not a leap of faith because they “just know” it’s not, but the indisputable truth is that yes it is. Let me explain my logic: When dealing with Love people spend time, talk and all of that with their partner to try to figure out his/her feelings and if they are true and who they are as a person(what qualities they have, which themselves are variables). It can be analogized with a mathematician solving for x but stuck with y, a, b , g and many more mystery variables (which he can only hope are nice numbers) from finding x. Furthermore after finding x, those mystery variables are still a mystery! A mathematician cannot logically assume a variable, much less many variables! He can however, take a leap of faith, hoping that he will guess the exact value of each one (what are the chances?) but is very prone to fallibility, to error. However, despite all of the possible years of hard work, it can all be taken away. A man can realize his partner was not who he’d hoped she was (the mathematician will realize he had GUESSED wrong.). There are a seemingly endless list of other possible bad outcomes but I’m not going to go into that. Proceeding on, at the end of the day a man can only hope that his woman feels the same for him, and all of that. It’s like lovers are in a tunnel with a flashlight. The light comes on every once in a while so the man see’s some truth but not enough to understand it, just enough to know it’s there. Just enough to hope the rest of it is to his liking which is a lot to expect and hope for when they are so many possible outcomes for a human. A human has many aspects and hoping for a specific combination of outcomes out of many is putting yourself out there quite a bit. Friendship is quite similar. You can only hope your friend matches the definition of a friend, and throughout life there are many hardships which seem to be attempting to corrupt ones values (in other words make one untrustworthy, deceptive and the like) which will lead to failed friendships in the future. Now that I think about it in such profound depth, it’s a scary thing. It seems to be a gamble with the odds exponentially stacked against each and every single one of us. However, people have long said one doesn’t need much besides love and friendship for a good life, for happiness. It’s sad to know that even if one gives his/her best efforts, they are still not guaranteed a trustworthy person matching the definition of a friend, or a lover with a relationship between the two matching the definition of love. If we need these things to be happy, and those are not guaranteed, than neither is our happiness. We can’t act in such a prejudice matter, expecting peoples unknown variables are what we want, or at least to out liking, but it sometimes seems as if we must. It seems it’s all or nothing. Why must the way of the world be such?

Insanity and Differences as a Whole

Insanity, they think a perspective different from their own is something else... they think it's crazy! If it's not sane, then it must be INSANE! I believe insanity is just another way of life. It has different gifts and different flaws than the way of life many people live by (sanity). I think the gift it brings (or at least could bring) is unsurpassed creativity, because insane people see the world in a different way. The flaw is things like paranoia, generally being a little "off" or "strange" and things of that nature. However, as previously stated, I believe it is just another way of life. When dealing with ways of life, one can be simple with little positives and little negatives... but how fun would that be? One can be average which I to me means having medium positive with medium negative (normal ups and downs in life). Now when I say positive I mean things like Ipods, going out to eat etc. and the negative is working to make the money to afford those luxuries. A simpleton would not have the luxuries of that way of life, but he/she also wouldn't have the work it brings either. You see each is balanced. This relates to insanity because I believe insanity is just an extreme life style. One can be, to put it simply, simple, average or extreme. Insanity as a life style has great flaws with great rewards, and if you ask me, the greatest reward is of sacrifice. If you're getting a great reward, then you must be sacrificing something great, or suffering great flaw/pain to balance it correct? This, to me matches the definition of insanity. Let's take a look at another example... John Nash. This man was a genius, and was awarding many prizes such as the Nobel memorial prize in economics science, the Leroy P. Steele Prize and a few more representatives of great achievement... of greatness. This greatness came with a great cost; Nash was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. Nash was basically an insane genius. Sometimes that's what it takes to reach greatness like that. Mr. Einstein was also a genius and won many awards representing great achievement as well as greatness in one aspect. He won the Nobel Prize in Physics, the Time Person of the Century award and a few more. However this man was not a schizophrenic, or anything else of that nature. One does not need to be insane to reach such greatness. Einstein said himself "I have no special talents, I am only passionately curious." showing that he did not have anything special, at least to himself. To me, he had unsurpassed patience as well as curiosity. I believe that he was gifted but perhaps not in the way that we all think. Maybe it wasn't his raw genius that came up with relativity theory maybe it was his patience. Maybe when a human mind ponders such things long enough it will come up with a testable answer, which in Einstein's case was relativity theory. Yet again the idea of an extremity shows up. Just as Nash had the extremity style of insanity, Einstein had the extremity style of patience. It wasn't the raw genius of these men, or at least not just the raw genius. These men had two different careers. Nash was a mathematician while Einstein was a physicist... just two different perspectives, two different methods of understanding all there is to be understood. This is the way of a successful future world. We will never end differences by killing each other in war, and as H. G. Wells put it “If we don’t end war, war will end us.” So you see that is at least 2 reasons why war is simply ignorant, brute, and uncivil. Rather than being rational and honorable men, we fight like the way we did 100, 1000, 2000 years ago. Why have we not learned that a war will solve nothing? We should honor and cherish differences. For this concept is what will allow us, not as a specific race, culture or any junk like that, but as a species to more closely understand the world, the universe and everything else to be understood. Once again I refer to the tower analogy. How can we see the whole picture with only one perspective? (Keep in mind when I say perspective I mean that each perspective is like a person standing somewhere that is unable to move around the tower) If we keep fighting each other, racing against who will see the whole picture first, we should work together as a species. It’s the same with all kinds of differences. Cultures, music, race, interests etc. should all be united. Do you think the pilgrims came to America and murdered the Indians (they did just not right away) because they farmed different? No, they learned from them. Everyone has something to share, whether it is knowledge, wisdom, laughter or whatever! Do you think Science can function without mathematics or English?! I can go on and on, but need I say more? Do I really need to say more for people to understand? Can’t you feel it in your heart that it’s wrong to treat people different because of differences? No it’s just ignorance. I believe the human mind is the most powerful thing in the universe, but ignorance is not power. If we are truly mighty we should at least be smart enough to have unity and realize that we cannot get to the stars and beyond if we cannot get past petty problems that we create amongst ourselves.
“The surest way to corrupt youth is to instruct him to hold to less esteem those who think alike rather than those who think differently.” - Friedrich Nietzsche

Special Days..?

I don't seem to feel them anymore, the special days like Christmas, Birthdays etc. They seem like normal days to me now and I don't think I'm alone. Let me explain: The birthday symbolizes a child's mentality of an event so significant that it is worth looking forward to consistently, believing that the next one will be better than the last, when in reality the effects of the event dull until it is simply another day.
Why does this happen? Children are always excited, hyper, active and generally joyous. Why does this often slow or even stop? A friend and I discussed this, and she says that it's up to the person whether a day is significant or not and also that it is them who makes it significant. I then said to her does this mean that it is all in your head? Let me provide and example: My birthday is December 19th. So, like most people, I celebrate. Sure it feels great but there is no unique feeling specifically to that day, but that's not the point. The point is if my birthday was August 5th, December 19th would be just another day right? So you see, it's us humans who assign this special event on whatever day of out choosing. There is no actual significance it is only us saying it's my birthday!
If we didn't remember our birthdays, would we feel any different on our birthday as appose to any other day? Hardly.
It's somewhat sad that we must tell ourselves "This day is special!" when really it's not. It is almost as if we lie to ourselves, we fool ourselves into thinking one day is greater than the next. Eventually as children grow up, the feel it. They don't consciously say "Hey my birthday is Lame! It feels like yesterday! I don't feel any older!" (well maybe sometimes they do). They usually feel it subconsciously. Subconsciously they start to notice it feeling dull, like any other day, but they don't know why... at least not consciously. During the time when a child feels so excited about an event that an adult finds almost insignificant, they display true ignorance and obliviousness. Sometimes I wish I could fool myself into a child's mind, to share to ignorance. Back when I was so Immaculate, attentive, Joyous.. and the like. Even though there is nothing significant.. they feel otherwise. Why? Honestly I don't think they would feel much of anything if we didn't make a big deal about birthdays, but we do. We constantly say "What do you want for your birthday!? What do you want to do for your birthday?!".. and so on. This is, even though we don't realize it, a trick. We are fooling the little ones into thinking a birthday is a big deal. Sure great to be alive but there is truly nothing different about it. It is only when we age, and "mature" that we notice there's nothing different. So continuing, I sometimes wish I could be in a child's state of mind, when my birthday was amazing, when there was nothing better than Christmas, when I was on top of the world again every time I became a year older... etc. However, I cannot. There are many forms of this thought. I can think of it as wanting to be a child again, I can think about it as wanting to be old, or to be consolidated.. or whatever.
But I cannot.
I cannot.
The only question is this a positive thing.. or a negative one?
Here's something to reason with:
Reality is just what you perceive it to be, so perceive well...

Deja Vu

Can you feel it? I know I can. The sense of ultimate exhaustion. Generally being tired and depraved of energy? A great example is being bored during summer vacation or something of that nature but simply being too tired to do something. You know you can’t just lay in bed, but your mind implores you to do so. Why is it that kids of 50 years ago were unstoppable while today’s youth is almost immovable? I know technology does not help but is there something deeper? Perhaps it’s the restless, repetitious schedule we live and breathe in. I’ve spoken of this before. Doing the same routine daily, 8 periods of school then coming home to homework. Doing that until the weekend comes, repeating that until the summer, and repeating all of that until you are out school. Can you imagine a free spirit? What do you think of? Probably someone running free, doing whatever he/she chooses with smiles and laughter. Compare this to reality. In my scenario, I always feel too tired to run, too trapped and constrained to school to do what my mind loves (which is mathematics not being an idiot), too busy to fit in my schedule anything of true enjoyment, too worried about obligations such as school to smile. What people don’t see is why they are still so tired even after 8..9..10+ hours of sleep. It’s because inside us, our minds are tired. Our bodies are replenished every night with sleep but our minds never get a break. They do, you say? I disagree, even at night we have dreams our minds create to keep itself busy. Why? I believe our minds know that if it stops.. it will no longer have the ability to start up again. How does it keep going in the first place? Objects in motion stay in motion. Starting up is the hardest part, but once in motion, once active, our minds require less and less energy to keep up the pace. It seems my mind is running on empty. Is has almost no energy of it’s own anymore. Energy is now almost all provided by previous energy from the law of motion, the law of Inertia. However even after giving literally everything it has to offer, the mind still seems unsatisfied with what is has done. There always seems to be something missing. The object, concept, feeling or whatever it is, is different for everyone but how can a mind be so broken and still be unfulfilled? I know it to be true, we don’t have everything we want. However make no mistake, I do believe this is best. We should NOT have everything, because if such a state were to be achieved all objects and the like would be deprived of value. So yes we shouldn’t have everything but our minds need to slow down a bit. If we aren’t going to have everything, our minds shouldn’t act as if we are by always working so vigorously. Don’t you wish you can pause life and allow your mind to catch it’s breathe?

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Mind of Logic

Even after concluding I must balance my intuition and Logic, I still realize my minds prime ammunition is Logic. I am very Logical and I think it's because I'm very inquisitive and curious which means I want to know how things work and why etc. It's reasonable that I want the truth rather than just a belief or something along that nature, which is most likely why my mind is so heavily based off of Logic, because when using Logic there is no doubt, only evidence that will lead to proof concluding a thought or debate. Furthermore intuition is in no way proven which obviously leaves it's front door open for fallibility to walk right in. This is why (I believe) when finding justice, a judge (at least should) bases his/her conclusion off of logic, which is based on evidence, not their gut feeling which is probably propelled by prejudice behavior (maybe judging based of of the defendants, appearance). Even though me basing my thoughts on Logic is reasonable due to the fact it's more solid, I Logically conclude that sometimes my mind must use intuition foreseeing a path invisible to my humble yet strong logic. You see in my eyes, Logic moves very prudently and can be compared to a computer: It will take all the time it needs to come to a conclusion it knows works because of evidence and proof, but when forced to make a 50% chance fail 50% chance progress decision it basically won't ever move because of possible failure. Whereas Intuition uses little to no evidence and makes uncertain decisions even if possibilities of failure are great. However intuition itself somehow gives the beholder a strong sense of the correct path (or at least it can) which Logic could never do and is quite strange. The two base's of thought balance each other out. How? Logic is probably going to be the primary basis of thought proving and justifying decisions (meaning it's not possible to make a worse decision that intuition only greater than or equal to) and then once a Logic itself cannot make a decision, intuition comes in and makes a decision based on gut feeling. But how? ..Who knows? My perspective of the two is clarified: I must have a balance. However as previously stated, I cannot seem to follow with action what my mind has ordered me to accomplish. I find it difficult making decisions sometimes, always doubting things in life because of the fact that their is room for doubt. If there wasn't room for doubt (which if it were proven there wouldn't be) I wouldn't doubt it. But there is, and so i doubt it. It's just my logic. Allow me to construct a more visual and practical situation i can demonstrate this concept and difficulty within. I'm about to by a pair of shoes. Even though the shoes are wicked cool my logical mind keeps bringing up the possibility of better shoes being out there. (I know it's a ridiculous example but bear with me) Because I can't prove that the shoes i like aren't the best (I don't want to settle, why get possibly mediocre shoes if it's possible there are shoes with the ability to dwarf the ones I admire now?) I hesitate the order them, afraid there are better shoes (as a computer would not make a decision because it is afraid to be wrong). This is a problem and I know it. Why can't I make such a simple decision? They are just shoes! However this concept applies to more than just shoes... but I digress. One of my ultimate question about this controversy is: Am I asking to much? Is there really a perfect pair of shoes out there for me, or will I always get the pretty awesome ones? What if the pretty awesome ones are really the perfect ones but because of my logic and semi skepticism, I make myself believe there are better, or at least can't pass the possibility of superior shoes? It's scary to know this problem is effecting me and I can't seem to cure myself of it. What's even more scary is how will I ever know what is perfect and what I can do better/get better of/in life when this problem chooses to appear in my life? I mean when it comes down to it how do I really know? I know this is where my intuition is suppose come from the shadows giving my Logic a rest but i fear if this were to happen the possibility would still haunt me in the form of those two most terrible words: What If..? It seems to me i must make sacrifices and risks in life because of the 2 facts in life: 1. The people we love, and the things we do can't always be the things that we strive for. And 2. I cannot predict life and every segment of it, I am just a man. It's logical and reasonable to conclude this but my mind won't accept it. I somehow need to get the Logical portion of my mind to accept this and start following the truth with action. I don't know how it's possible but I've realized my logic argues points in life with...itself. It argues the possibility of better this and better that but it also argues to importance of intuition and therefore not everything in life can be proven hence the fact that there will always be the possibility of this or that.

I suppose I must believe.

Will of a Human

Once again the topic comes up, success. Perhaps not the main concept in this blog but definitely in the foundation. A friend of mine wants to get involved in business, business management and the like. It's basically some kind of organization that sells all kinds of things and it starts with 1 guy that recruits 3 more to do the same, sell. Those 3 people then do the same, sell and recruit 3 additional people. However the real money comes by recruiting. Because every person you recruit and everyone in those families ultimately contribute to you and all before you as well. So it's like a tree and the guy at the top get's paid. The object is to spread the organization so that you are at the top of a smaller tree that will eventually pay tons of money. Once you've reached so much you keep getting that x amount monthly. Anyways, He's gone to a couple meetings to see "what it's like" but nothing major. All he talks about is the money and how much this guy make or that guy makes. He never talks about how he would enjoy doing it, just about the money he will make and how easy it is (after all who enjoys managing a company by sitting in front of a computer screen their whole career?). My first impression was that of a skeptic: sounds too easy. I'm sure I'm not the alone with the thought however, both of my sisters agreed that it sounds like a get rich quick scheme. The contrary was argued by my friend until I prudently agreed to (to put it simply) pretend it's not a scam. He could be right, it could be totally legitimate but to further the conversation and break down the idea (into smaller segments for more thorough analyzing) I chose to act as if it were 100% reliable (because in reality nothings ever for sure). He then continues to speak of the luxuries that money brings: waking up late every day, doing "whatever" he wants everyday whether it be going to Hawaii, Canada etc., not having to worry about whether he can pay this or that every month and so on. To me it had "American Dream" written all over it. Yes it is possible to have everything you want and all, they (people like teachers, school officials and all them) are totally correct when they say you CAN have it all. However this idea comes up in my mind. A very swift idea, quick to escape my captivating words I attempt to capture it with. Maybe it's not just this idea either, a lot of my ideas and thoughts seem to escape my efforts of transforming them into ink or even words. Ah, I've caught myself digressing which doesn't help me capture thoughts. Anyways, the idea that comes to me is that somethings, if not all, aren't as great as they seem. There is tons of psychology in the concepts, objects and people we heavily depend on and adore. Take love for example, and a great one at that, it's only so great because you along with everyone else in the world, knows what it feels like to be alone. You see love itself isn't amazing but we evolve into a new versions of ourselves except now we need love. It helps us escape that most terrible feeling of loneliness. It's really us that makes the object or concept great. Think of it as a mountain. All our lives we are climbing this mountain and for what? Most think it's to get the treasure at the top. That's wrong. It's just a concept to keep everyone climbing. What most don't realize though, is that the treasure isn't really that great. The most valuable thing is the journey, that's the real treasure, and then the runner up is the physical gold, money or whatever other kind of treasure you can think of that can be held in your hands. And the only reason it's even runner up is because the journey is hard, but it's the only way to truly appreciate any physical treasure. Well i might have lost some people because i do tend to branch off quite rapidly, but to the objective of that was to say that my friend is just trying to skip to the treasure. He says to hell with them mountain hiking and on with the treasure and luxury. Furthermore he says, I don't want to work a normal 9-5 job (hike up the mountain) I want to work for a few years and then retire (skip the whole journey to get to the treasure)! It's logical to think that the physical treasure is the real treasure (if that made any sense) but really, the wise already know otherwise; that the mountain hiking is basically for their own good. It's the way to really appreciate life. Skipping the mounting climbing (which is a negative.. but in the end a positive) and going straight to the gold (which is a positive but in the end not as good as the climbing) would throw off the balance i so heavily implore others to see. I've said it before balance is everywhere and you can't corrupt the equilibrium of positives and negatives in life.. otherwise we would have nothing or at least something very wrong. So I've made it clear that one should not skip this or that to get this or that because it would throw off balance but.. the last point i would like to make is that which my friend made clear only later in our conversation: He not only doesn't want to worry about bills and the like, but he wants to help people out with all of this extra money he get's and all of the extra time he will have. I ask of him: How? He explains things that he see's a lack of in life and how art and things that should be reinforced are otherwise. He, with the money and time he will have, will seek out kids wanting to draw, paint etc and give them supplies so that they can do what they love and not be hindered by funds, things like parents wanting their kids to do something else etc. I then explain why I had so heavily disagreed with his decision before but now couldn't agree with it more. You see money, cars, women etc (anything you can think of from the average American dream) isn't success. Their are multiple ways of reaching success. It might be working hard to reach whatever you desire (climbing the mountain for the treasure), simply loving what you do and thinking of your job as the real treasure and the money as something extra, which you do not need, or doing something else such as his dream. His desires for wealth and luxuries of life are corrupt if they are lonely, but together with his vision of aiding others to reach their dreams transforms the desire completely. This is the power of will, and it can turn even some of the most corrupt objects, concepts or people into something great. Will is leverage of the mind. But.. how much longer might his will, last him throughout his lifetime? All I can do is hope his mind and priorities/values change once he begins to the the luxuries.. after all such seems to have always been throughout history. After it is human nature, or so it seems.

Zombie

Sometimes I feel like everyday is the same. Like I’m forced to wake everyday to do the same routine consisting of showering, going to school which means going to the same 8 periods and learning the same stuff then come back home taking school with me except, never really waking up to begin with. Sometimes I feel like the things I learn don’t actually help me, the help me to help the system. You see “they” plan our future for us by giving everyone social security numbers at birth, forcing you to go to school, drilling it in your head that there is no other way but school. I think education is a great idea but I feel as if the government doesn’t do it for our own good, it does it for IT’s own good.. see what I’m saying? We’re just along for the ride. The plan is for us to go to school for 12 years at the least (because if we didn’t we wouldn’t be able to efficiently support them) but the strongly encourage us to go to college which does mean a better life for us, but they still get their pick of our salary: Income Tax. While most think we need income tax to support schools, construction etc we do NOT. Schools are supported through property taxes, roads through gasoline tax (and for the record 43 cents per gallon) etc. I wonder what the extra money (income tax) goes to? Supporting them and their wants of course.. the only question is what? Warfare? Weather Manipulation? Who knows… but that whole subsection was to explain why they want you to go to college to get your money. You don’t work for HEB you don’t work for Nabors, you work for the government..ultimately and indirectly. I digress, this whole school thing whether it be for the government or not is still this big routine. First i go to elementary which has it’s own subroutines, everyday being the like the last. Then there’s Middle school which is slightly different with more subsections of routines and so on. After college it’s work but to me it all looks the same. You can setup your own schedule but it’s probably going to be something like work 9-5 for 5 days off for 2. Repeat until your vacation comes once a year (if your lucky) repeat this bigger cycle until graduation Oh wait there is not graduation because it’s not high school. There are no bigger cycle so the only thing next is death. It scares me.. i know. However there is one thing i forgot to mention: how much harder work is than high school. You see work seems to be based of of high school except far more serious. There is no “make-up” work in your career only deadlines which if not met mean trouble. There is no parents to help you reason with your teachers (boss), there is no detention for being late to school only being fired. Furthermore the money earned (knowledge) can barely be used to by yourself anything because it is all going to bills. Like that nice car you bought leaving you with a nice car but with practically no money to pay for insurance, gas etc to even drive it. See what I’m saying? Stupid. The only thing you can do with it (well afford to anyways..) is drive it to work. Wow big whoop. I don’t know why kids wish to “escape” school so bad. You find yourself facing the real world which is not better than the sheltered school you were in before. It’s not the teachers or responsibility you run away from, it’s the energy and life depriving school schedule itself. You see doing the same thing everyday requires less and less of you actually thinking. You start to walk to this or that class or go to this or that lunch line without even realizing it, eventually (practically) turning you into some kind of mindless zombie. The only time we use our minds is on the weekends but by this time we are so tired we don’t want to do anything but sleep. And might I add, that it’s not your boss (teachers),work (homework) or even lack of sleep probably due to you bringing work home with you that drains you. It’s the mindless, zombifying schedule. This empty schedule that never mentions anything benefiting the human being following it, only the government from whom it was designed by. The exhaustion just blurs everything.. When adults tell you to stay young it’s for a reason. Because they have realized that work is just harder outside of school than inside, but they probably don’t realize why. Like i said, it’s the restless schedule we live out lives by, getting into car accidents just attempting to be on time to work? What are we? The car itself might be great but the costs, responsibilities, liabilities and the like, I’d say, heavily outweigh the gift itself. Why even drive? Might as well walk. The sad part is we don’t need cars but we do need them to be on time to work. Like Ive stated in the previous post Foolish Laughter, this country has evolved to be built upon a foundation containing a core problem. The false believe that we “must” keep going with technology. I can go on about that but cars only solve problems created by technology itself. How ironic, i know. All of this worry tires me more than any work ever can/will but it’s stacked on top of the work.. and that’s not including the far more challenging period of the real world i have yet to face.
Lucky me.

Escape

So it turns out I've found my way out of a dark, forsaken place. Perhaps I was pulled from such a place or the exit found me but that thought is for another time. I want to state my mind and my.. feelings. Yes, feelings. Turns out I'm human after all. There was a "series of unfortunate events" leading up to my temporary negative slope in the graph of life. To summarize it severely it was a loss, a mistake, and the rippling effects of them both. The loss was, not as severe as I acted. Perhaps it was but logical thought got me past it. Problem solving of life as if they are just word problems (who says they aren't). And what of this mistake? I've made many in life, many in this past year, many in just a day an hour.. beyond count. I am fallible, because I am human, but perhaps that fallibility also comes bearing a gift. Perhaps that gift will forever separate humanity from anything else in the (uni)verse. And yes I say gift because: despite humanity's recklessness there is good in people, mostly it stays hidden but it's there waiting to be unlocked, unleashed along with potential.However I digress, my mistake was crucial to my period of "darkness" and I will never forgive myself for it. nothing I do or say will ever undo it.. but I know I am forgiven, I know that a mistake can't get in the way of something more. Though the darkness surrounded me, I held on to the light I saw ahead, until my mind reached it's period of freedom. I admit that, in time, it's possible I will face another time just as dark, maybe even darker. However it's simply the Trials and Tribulations of life, prevailing proves yourself to yourself, others and your mind. Back to the concept of life being word problems (trials).. sometimes we must look at life as if it has nothing to do with us. As if we weren't going to be punished even if we picked a bad choice (but of course the goal is to pick the correct path). That is when your heart stops it's racing and also stops the worrying emotion. Well to be more specific your heart isn't in it, because it doesn't pertain to you. The statement sounds cruel but I use it to my advantage. Treat the problem as IF it didn't pertain to you although it does. That is when your mind uses simple logic to solve problems from the hardest to the simplest. Normally your mind attempts this but your heart get's in the way with all it's worrying and what not. That is why you must temporarily put it on pause! It's how I solve some of my problems. However, emotion (which derives from our hearts of course) makes us human. It can help us as well as hinder us, just and the logical mind and brain can. Sometimes a situations calls for your heart, sometimes it calls for your head. The point is a balance is needed. I've discussed this "balance" topic previously, but it slipped my mind that it's not just everywhere around us, it's also inside us, In our thoughts. We need to retain this equilibrium to correctly, rationally, reasonably and logically handle heavy situations. This, I envision, will lead to a more perfect society. Not perfect, just more perfect. Without hearts we are machines with organs, not human. Without our heads we are unsophisticated beasts despite the fact that we can still love.
After all, we are [only?] human.

Balance

..It's simply... Key.
To almost everything I'd say. One thing I've noticed, maybe not as I experienced it but looking back on it, is there is Balance everywhere and in everything. You might be on a diet and eating okay (as in some candy & ice cream here and there) and exercise normally. Well say you eat a lot of crap one day, well in order to balance it out you have to exercise more so even though you took in more calories than normal you also worked off more then normal. That's just a physical example of balance, you see balance can take every which way that way form whatever! Like someones personality for example, everyone has their downfalls, but the ups about them make up for it don't they..?Someone might be a douche (once in a while) but every other day they are the coolest person ever and plus they apologize for being that way. Also you can be a profound thinker, just be oh so smart and intellectual but be somewhat of a geek in school. There is a downfall and up to almost everything, but rather than getting all positive i say it's better to have a balance. I have so many thoughts coming to mind i don't even know what to type anymore. Let me say one more thing though. You say "Are you saying that people that don't have that balance suck or something?!" No that's not what I'm saying. Because if you have a real douche, I mean a real jerk there has to be someone else in the world that's nice as hell.. like so nice it's scary (ha ha just kidding). But the sad part is if that were true wouldn't the world be perfect, or something close to it? Well I say that.. In today's world people need to find balance within themselves before they can try to balance out the world. But there all these bad things that want to break that balance.. like doing drugs or stealing.. all of the negativity. See if you make a mistake, make up for it. If you don't this disrupts the unseen balance that will have rippling, lasting effects. Imagine your life is like a scale -10 through 10. A mistake is -1 so in order to make up that negative 1 you have to do something that +1 right? Well what about the people that are like -10 on everything? Well like i said before there are people that are +10 somewhere in the world...Just not enough. You see the world is going to downhill to be completely honest. 100 years ago Pessimists outnumbered optimists 3 to 1 (just throwing a number as an example) Well today it's probably like pessimists (and that includes every kind of negative person) 8 and optimists (every kind of positive person) 2. Yeah it's pretty bad. There is balance in some people but if your comparing the world it's on the negative side. let's pretend Jimmy's overall rank is +4 well there are going to be 3 people that all have -2 and that will bring the world down overall to -2. Well of course this is just an example but In my mind that's how i conclude the world to be, more and more negatives popping up than the optimists can handle. It's... bombarding and all i can say is please.. do what's right and have some balance. You might have stole a candy bar but in exchange help the old lady with her groceries on the way out.. ahahaha! No one is perfect and that's why I'm not saying oh don't steal the candy bar that's wrong.. because it's going happen. Sure the candy bar was a choice but it represents any morally ill decisions. Some you can decide and others happen almost without you knowing. This balance starts from the day we are born to maybe even long after we die. Imagine your some famous person and you do something bad.. well that bad act might be looked back at even 50 years after your death who knows. But.. I'd like to say one more thing before i conclude this.
People that come out of the lower side of society whether it be severe or minor, and try hard and end up living a good life, they (in my mind anyways) live a better life than someone who has had money (and lots of it) their whole lives. Why? Balance.  It's better to start not so good and end up positive so that you can appreciate all the things that you have.. and appreciation can help the balance too. But as i was saying it's better to start off not so good so you can appreciate than to always have it and not know what it really means or how good it is to go eat at Red Lobster or Olive Garden and buy all these nice clothes all that stuff.
So.. Find your Center
You can find inspiration and answers everywhere, you just have to Always stay open. All Ways

Malleability

Youth.. It's undeniably significant to ones whole life. It is.. the very foundation for reaching the sky, for catching the sun, the stars and the moon. Anything you want to be or achieve etc. all starts with your youth.. your childhood and teen years. It starts with your infancy, how your parents treat you, what you see as a kid, what you hear. Most people think it's cute when little kids or babies are using vulgar language when they can only say mommy and daddy. The truth is it's a perfect example of how the child is portrayed to be in his adolescent years and maybe even adult hood. You could imagine when kids at 12 and 13 start using profanity it get's bad... imagine when they start at 3 and 4 instead of 12 and 13(big difference). So as you can see that's a huge characteristic and the kids only gone through what 3 or 4 years of his life by now? Crazy! Anyways.. as the kid progresses in life he will start to understand people and things around him with more clarity than before. He will be effected (probably) mainly by the kids he goes to school with. Not that it's a crime but obviously kids at that age(elementary) are immature and talk/laugh about everything. Then comes middle school and wow these are the years. Around this time you make really close friends and these friends effect you far more than any other kids at school (which still effect you substantially). The child is no longer a child.. he's almost a teenager. I'd like to say a lot of kids suffer a "decline" of some sort and this is important.. for it can swallow you if you don't control it. Hopefully around the end of middle school you have overcome this declination period.. but some unlucky few are still trapped. Anyone reading this should know what I'm talking about. Your years at high school are still immensely shaping to people as a whole. Think of your life as a metal strip growing stronger and stronger every year, as a infant/child you are so small/thin and ever so easily shaped. As a kid your a bit more firm but still very susceptible to change.. perhaps by an older siblings? As a teenager you probably think you know what you want but almost always it's not what you want or need. Support for this would be things like: The kids that are always in trouble.. why are they in trouble? Because how they were raised as a child and kid which led them to hang out with kids raised the same way and so on. Also, the kids always doing good in school will keep doing good in school and probably achieve much higher forms of recognition. Anyways and on to the high school years of the what is now young adult. Now he/she wants to go out and but himself/herself things and wants a car etc. This alone (the desire for wealth and materialistic items) can sway one from a path very generously. Along with the friends you might have had since middle school or elementary molding you day by day whether you realize it or not. It's the reason they say everyone, everybody you've ever gone to the movies with, had a good time or just generally hung out with is a part of you, small but there. Without all of those people you would not be who you are today. You are now a strong strip not easily shaped as you once were in your younger years. This continues until(I'd say) your out of college. It might seem simple but take into consideration all of the unmentioned variables involved such as drugs, alcohol, truancy, music, media, internet, hobbies etc. All of these things can greatly effect you whether it be positive or negative it's just an example of the changes everywhere all the time. Nobody realizes the significance of youth and how we need to take great care of it. It's such a fragile and malleable stage of life and ,as most people do realize, our future. One day you and I will be parents and like everyone else we just want the best for our kids. Well you and I need to take care of our kids and when i say take care i mean think back to your youth and think about how you always heard lectures and the like. Did you remember any of them? They all sounded the same right? Wrong! there was at least one you really listened to and remembered whether consciously or subconsciously. What do you think they said that made them stand out from the rest? What you needed to hear! Most likely it was a person down to earth that understood you and wasn't afraid to say they've been there and they have made mistakes like everyone else in the world! So talk to your kids like that.. not like you want them to be perfect (the ideal perfect) but that you just want them to do good in life and you realize there will be hardships and declines in the road to glory. That is the honest truth.. you make your destiny and nothing is predetermined that is exactly the reason why teachers are always telling dropouts they can still graduate and get there life together.. because it's the truth they can! It's just harder to do it when you get older. A perfect example would be: what's easier? Saying no that kid John when he asks you to steal a candy bar from the store? Or saying no to the same John 6 years later when he asks you to rob a bank with him? Exactly it's the path of a more shallow kid but he can still escape it all with the right attitude and motivation. So do it when your younger and it'll be easier! I don't think you shouldn't hang out with "John" kids but just have friends that are better than that. Hang out with john at lunch once in a while to say what's up but the people that ask you to help them learn to kickflip on a skateboard or join a summer camp with them.. those are the people you want to hang out with after school. Those are the people that are going to sway your life in oh so many ways.
Period.

True Love

What is it?
Hasn't this question been asked a million times? I'd say more.
Anyways I'm posting because once again I was thinking about lots and lots of stuff when It came to me, and I made the connection. Let's examine the quote "You don't really know what you got till it's gone." Makes a lot of sense huh? Well How about "You don't really know what it is to relax unless you suffered and gone without it." or "You don't know what good is unless you've experienced the bad." I don't know about you all but to me that makes total sense. And There is a connection between the 3 of those. It's.. I can't really put it into words but I'll try. It's like the same concept or moral. But anyways I'm sure you all knew that. Well I was thinking about love and it's basically the same as good or like ya know? Well the same as you have to have bad to have good.. you have to have hate to have love.. make sense? I think it does. I think that most people have to hate somebody to really know what it is to love. And like myself.. you'll know if you've ever loved. I was in love once and I loved it :) It was really great and i enjoyed it and all but it left me.. no.. It was stolen from us. Long story but I didn't really realize i was in love with the girl until she left. I don't know where the hate came into place but you guys get it right?? I was in love! but i didn't know it. She left and then somewhere along the line i experienced hate.. which made me realize i was in love at a point. But now thinking about it.. maybe it's not hate? Maybe there are multiple ways to achieve and realize love. I might not know what love is but I think a girl like that comes once. Maybe I'm wrong maybe there are different girls that are perfect for you but I assure you if that's true it's not many. And like I've stated in my previous blog we are susceptible to change and that goes with out concept of love too, it's susceptible to change as well. I'm starting to believe we go through stages of love.. or maybe just life but love goes along with those stages of life. Either way.. i think one of the two are true. And I think that the stage that I'm in now.. Sofia is the Perfect girl for me. Maybe I'll transition into another stage and there will be a new perfect girl for me. Let's name the 1st stage.. stage 1 where Sofia is the perfect girl for me. And (if i transition) the 2nd stage.. stage 2 where there will be another perfect girl. If i were to move on and find a perfect girl for my stage 2 then whala! you know? but Sofia will remain the Perfect girl of my stage 1.. Always All Ways. But back to the subject.. Maybe I won't have to transition.. Maybe I'll remain at stage 2.. after all I'm pretty sure I'm much more mature than most my age so I will come to a climax or finale of stages sooner than most as well ya know? Well Anyways.. I have to get some stuff done. Just a thought for everyone.. Think about it!

As Small As..?

So there a lot of small things throughout the universe but i feel that they are the ones that effect things and people the most. For example my room is always dirty - why? Because of the small things. Me not throwing away that strawberry shake after posting this blog ha ha. Or not putting away my clothes waiting till the last minute to do stuff etc. etc. You see if i would just get into the habit of throwing away my crap day by day i can keep my room clean as appose to having to spend a whole Sunday cleaning it :) You see it's not just my room this applies to not even my whole house. I like to think (and it's perfectly reasonable to think that) it applies to the everything! If people would only see that it's the small things that count the most like if you have this girl you really like and your head is so "!" about. It's the small things she does that make you really like her! So small you don't even realize she does it(well maybe you do but you forget.. and that's not a bad thing). It's the reason why whenever someone asks you why you like her so much you don't really know what to say besides "The way she is". I think I've made myself clear :] Another is how when you mess up bad and your dad is getting mad it can either go worse or better (obviously). You could have been doing a whole bunch of little things right and said hey dad you know at least I've been doing good this whole time and what not doing the dishes sweeping and all that! Or if you haven't done any of those good little things your dad will probably go "..and you haven't helped around the house! I never see you doing anything" bla bla etc etc. So to everyone reading, Don't think for a second that the small things don't count. Because they actually count the most. They could keep your job (your manager either says yeah you messed up but your always on time etc. or you messed up and your always late! etc.) they could keep your girl ( i know he messed up but he always made me feel so! and it wasn't even when we did something exciting it was just over nothing the way he talked to me and just the way he was with me in general!) all the small things people. They might be you opening the door for people or your girl or as small as tying your shoe so you don't look stupid on that date.
Whatever it is don't think it doesn't matter.. I am only one person in this world of millions; watch me make a big impact.

Foolish Laughter

The Mayans, The Aztecs, Toltecs, Olmecs, Egyptians. They all built their civilizations so visually mapped out before hand. These structures were great! I mean truly magnificent. People might say "What's so great about some rocks piled on top each other?" Well for one the geography is quite impressive and the ability they must have had to craft and design these is alone astonishing. I don't think their structures were any less great than ours are. 1000 years from now I bet they will still be there. Ours? They'll be gone in half that time, if that. Yes the devices and general technology we have is great but it's also very power hungry and delicate. Past civilizations made almost nothing but physical changes to this earth, while we are quite the opposite. Consistently using multiple sources of energy chemically.. but it's never enough. When will we ever be tired of electricity and the like? I say no. The sad part is that none of this is really necessary. They might argue that electronics help keep in contact etc etc but the ultimate goal of all these is a corrupt one. To be lazier and lazier. When they get cell phones they wonder how they ever went without one? The only reason a cell phone is needed in today's society is because it's built around a problem. A problem we so heavily depend on. Think of it as a twin tower with a bad frame. Some have barely realized there's something wrong with the structure because everyone's so interested in building it higher and higher. The problem is how do we fix our foundation without the whole building collapsing? The core problem is that science is constantly finding out more and more of "we can this and we can that" but the real question is should we? To most past civilizations represent beastly society's without sophistication. This is true.. but is sophistication really, really the "right" thing to do? I mean it seems so good at first to stop bashing animals with sticks for food and start growing things. However in the long run it will eventually lead to the never ending "need" for energy.. which in my eyes, can quite possibly be the death of mankind. So now we have evidence of what mankind is capable of.. but the question remains.. should we have? Have we gone to far? Technology was first used to make life easier because it was so much trouble to start fires and the like.. so we created things to make it easier. However the logic in this only goes so far. When does it transcend from vindicated hard work to pure laziness? Do you think people in the 17th century would have created Ipods? They would have probably said "what is it used for? It doesn't make life easier?! That sounds like something we don't need. What we do need is better ways to go about or ways.. farming, cooking, writing, knowledge etc." My ultimate goal in this passage is introduce profound examination of ancient civilizations. Were they really as stupid as they seem? Or did they chose not to advance eventually becoming today's monsters? I personally think mankind has opened Pandora's box. We have gone beyond what is not only reasonable but safe.Today's society is very very dangerous and not just because of the bad people, but simply the way the world works.. our hunger is a dangerous one. They could have been to stupid to make life easier (of course they wouldn't have come up with TV's! I'm talking about simple ways to make life easier!) or something like this could have happened: They queen is the greatest right? everyone loves the queen. well one day someone presents the queen with a new tool of some sort to make it easier on workers. Well the queen could have rejected the tool foreseeing it's evolution and eventual, overall harm. Or she could have said yes then eventually realized that this is going in the direction of just luxuriousness. That's just something to think about. It's probable that it didn't happen like this, it's just my vision. Anyways, there's obviously a big difference between out society and past society's. I think it's only logical to ask, "Why?"

Live Curious.

Idealistic Friendship vs Realistic Friendship

Friendship.
Many people talk of true friendship
but the question is are they talking realistic or ideally?
To me a friend is someone who is there, maybe not always but you know that if you ever needed them they would come through for you however small or big the scenario may be. They might live far or they might live down the street. It makes no difference. To a lot of people the ideal friend will never hurt you, will always be there etc etc. Well realistically all friends (because they are human beings, and human beings are fallible to error) will eventually make a mistake. And there is nothing wrong with that, everyone makes mistakes, in fact it's a mistake that once you and a friend get past makes you stronger. If your asking a friend to be perfect, then in my eyes you are not only living in a dream world but you are probably not worth their time. Because friendship is not lopsided, things don't go one way and one way only. A friendship is also about balance. Sometimes you might do this one day because your friend loves to do it some days you might get to do what you love. Just because you want a perfect friend doesn't mean they can't have one! And since nobody is perfect it's impossible to have a perfect friendship. Well.. Ideal friendship.. let's just say that. Because perfect is what you see it to be. To me perfect is like i was saying a friend that will overall be a Positive influence on you, always be there etc etc. if you look at the positives/negatives they will all be positives except for the occasional negatives when they, like everyone else in the world, slip. But to someone else a perfect friendship is someone who is ideal and the truth is that can never happen. There is not one person out there who is never going to make a mistake so the ideal friendship can never exist. For those of you who have had a friend mess up before you have to realize there is no one that is perfect and that everyone makes mistakes, so if they are still worth your time (still positive after that 1 negative) then keep them as a friend. Think of friendship as a math problem or something along the lines of that. They are always adding because they are such good friends +1...+1..+1.. and so on. Well say they are at +30. Is a single -1 going to tear your friendship apart? NO! your still at +29! and if they keep things that way they will reach +59 before they make another mistake! ohhh so what -1 brings you to +58. So what? People must understand that the number is the impact they have not only on your life but your perspective! They are the ones that either get you in trouble or get you into something productive! They are the ones that make you view your life, and others, with regret, or no regrets! They ultimately sway your pessimistic/optimistic view upon things. And in my opinion if someone has raised my life 30 points and slips by 1 point then so be it! I embrace the mistake because i know 30 positives will grow out of that one negative. Nobody needs a lot of friends but everyone needs true friends.

Keyword Success

I'm always hearing talk, talk of wealth, talk of materialistic items, talk of a lot of things. Everybody's doing it whether you realize it or not. Everyone's talking about what lies ahead and what they planned for themselves. The goal, well what should be the goal, is success. Success is what separates wasted time from time well spent. But with all the talk of basically planned success, my question is: What is Success? How do I know I was and am successful at the end of the day, year, and my life? Where exactly is the line drawn between failure and success? In hopes that this will implore you to redefine success, I will explain what success is to me. First off, Money is the success of a fool, and as much as I'd like to think most people aren't fools, I'd be ignorant to say most aren't at least foolish, sadly because the world revolves around money. Sure it's great to have enough money to go to nice restaurants instead of always eating fast food and the like. It's of course not smiled upon to live poorly and barely get by. A job makes it seem as if your worth as much as you earn.. sadly. This isn't the truth, just because an engineers job is much more challenging than a janitors, doesn't make the engineer better than the janitor. We are all human beings and we should start acting that way. We shouldn't always be comparing, racing and fighting against each other. I see a conflict and battle erupt in some of the simplest things, like a job or career. Simply because of the false conception that in this cruel naive world, if your an engineer your better than a janitor. I cannot stress enough how incorrect this is but also just plain evil. Of course there are other topics and analogies i could relate this matter to, but I digress. I think that people should only have enough money to live comfortably and that doesn't mean wasting money on rip of shoes like space jam Jordans that, despite the outrageous price, look plain ugly. But I'm sure nobody will agree with my opinion. I think It will stand as just a good point. Most people would agree that the harder your work is the more you should earn, I agree but only to a certain extent. and the extent out of 100 is less then 50 so that means I agree more with earning only enough to live comfortably. The fact that a lot of people with tons of money, preferably stars for this example, spend too much money on junk, crap and worthless material they might not even use once purchased. But enough of that, continuing on with success. I think that the world needs more people that are considerate, and think logically instead of with cruelty, ruthlessness and the like. But how do we find these people? The better question is: How do we raise them? Yeah that's right WE raise them, right here in our own homes. We are the ingredients of Americas future because we raise the future children and the children of today are the future.. obviously. So basically the best thing to me that anyone can do is raise great children. Because the world has enough assholes, idiots, cowards, and overall negative people. We need to raise the our kids right so that they grow up on the concept that we are all created equal and that the color of ones skin, the amount of money one makes, ones occupation, and the like, are all miscellaneous immaturity characteristics that we must get past in order to reveal our true potential. In order to see the real beauty of the world when we walk down the street. In order to see the good people can really do when given the opportunity. And if we raise children like this, they will obviously raise their children just as good, or maybe even better. Because after all that's all a parent want's right? For their children to be better than them? Imagine all the effort your parents have put into you completely transformed so that we can actually reach out true potential. I hope that didn't sound insulting.. what I mean is there are setbacks in life like, and especially, money. Imagine your parents didn't have to worry about money.. not even a little! You and everyone around you lived comfortably! The greatest reward is of sacrifice. The reward would be great equality and perhaps even peace. The sacrifice would be all of the stars and what not wouldn't have all that extra money to throw away. And pardon me If i only refer to them but it is one of the best examples i can use. There are starving people and some are children. Imagine if our taxation money actually went to feeding the needy and fixing out community! And some might say well the needy got themselves there! this isn't necessarily true for many I believe have experienced overwhelming set backs in life which prevents them from better themselves repeatedly. Well what about the rich kids that do wrong?? That's simply an error the fundamentals a child needs early in life. And it's probably the parent gave and bought the kid everything he or she wanted to the kid just to shut him or her up. The attention that's needed early in life can and should form a bond with the child. This bond can go a long way. For example.. what if Raul was feeling bad and talked to his mom about it and not only did she fix the problem but she made him feel better as well. Well what do ya know? If he didn't have his mom about it then he could have gotten mad and went off on somebody! The effects are parents are some of the most profound in ones life. We need to raise good children, to not only make up society but to make it a much better place based on their actions. Then once society is leveled there will be fewer and fewer setbacks for the less fortunate.. eventually there might not be less fortunate (money wise) hence there will be fewer and fewer negative kids.. It will keep getting better and better. So to me the best success I can have in life is raising a damn good kid that I am proud of.Obviously there will be mistakes in his or her life but everyone makes them.. your president, your policemen, everyone.
Even, and i think especially, after a mistake is made a child can still become an excellent person. Let life revolve more around our children and less on money, inequalities, battles, and ourselves.

Subconscious

I would start this off with "So" but I've noticed how I do that almost every time. Anyways I've been thinking about new "Topics" to discuss and post about. I haven't had much time to do nothing like I used to, I mean i do but I don't. Anyways I want to talk about the subconscious side of their minds, they as in me you him her..everyone. The tree of subconscious thought flourished because i was trying to explain to Crystal how dreams can potentially effect, or for tell the future somewhat. Because no one really knows what they mean or do etc. but I think it's perfectly reasonable to think dreams are relevant because.. think about it. There's a reason for everything you and I do. So why wouldn't/ shouldn't there be a reason for dreaming? It's like a
window or door into what could be greatness, wisdom or whatever you want it to be ya know? So why not
explore what every human being has had since every night?! Well I was trying to explain how subconsciously you make a choice whether to do something or not(simplistically speaking). For example of I throw a punch at you you have many choices. You can get hit of course or you can defend yourself with many techniques. Which one you "choose" I'd say would be subconsciously chosen. You don't actually have enough time to say hmmm.. lemme see what I got here what would be the better thing to do? No it's just react! So when they say why did you duck rather than step back or block? Was it because subconsciously you thought that was the better choice? bla bla many other "was it because..?" The truth is there are things you are conscious of and things you aren't. Example: Your walking down the street and you notice a guy walking weird, with a limp maybe but not bad just a limp. Why would You or I notice that over the advertisement for an all you can eat buffet for just 5 bucks? If you were to see both why would the guy with a limp register in your conscious mind (the stuff you actually think about) as appose to your subconscious mind (the stuff you don't think you'd notice but in a way you do). Well suppose you notice both but your only conscious of the guy with a limp and later that day you go to sleep and dream about food maybe Chinese maybe American but food. And In your dream it's not for 5 bucks it's for free! All you can eat but i mean truck loads of stuff with deserts and your starving!! This is just an example of what i dream could be. Say the buffet is American food but in the dream is about Chinese and instead of being 5 bucks it's free! And you weren't that hungry but in the dream you were starving! It's an example of what could be your subconscious mind trying to tell you something (your subconscious mind because you didn't actually think about it) It could be telling you to be more observant and watch out for things that don't come around often or whatever you know. Maybe you'll be thinking about Chinese food later on and not know why? Has that ever happened to you? I'm sure it has. It all makes sense now, huh? You don't know why your thinking of that thing but you are. It's because your subconscious mind noticed it and it's floating around in your head. So i was thinking deeper and deeper about this subconscious part of our mind. How can something we don't even notice have such a potential effect on us? It effects us more than we know I'll say. So let's pretend whoever you are, you are of male gender and you are a heterosexual (you like women, the opposite sex). You go out on a date and your girl is looking really F'n good today. There's something but you can't strap it down, or maybe you don't even (think you) notice. Either way it's probably floating around in your head. Let's say you don't (think you) notice. Your probably gana be thinking wow she looks good, and leave it at that you don't even question why. Your gana be like wow she looks so good and your generally going to appreciate your time with her more than usual, enjoy those hugs and kisses, give her those passionate smiles etc etc. So for all those girls that say "That jerk didn't even notice my new necklace" or something like that. Perhaps he did but simply subconsciously. So come one man don't even sweat it. The main reason i wrote this is to explore/discover and enlighten about our subconscious minds. The other reason is to say hey sometimes it's not how it appears, in fact a lot of things in life can't be figured out at first glance, with the naked eye.
Always keep an open mind, All Ways.